Poemander

I ain't no f*cking poet, not even I'm a novelist.

I could have given sermons, If I have been a liturgist.

Come ask my name: I've got them all.

Don't ask me where I'm from:

I'm from a place we both call home,

Go figure, go confirm.

Why do I scribble goddamn words?

I tell you, cause I've got no choice,

Cause bourbon ain't no sweet enough

To palliate rogue inner voice.

Thus voice has rasped with despair,

And ears have deafened from the smear.

Can be I even more sincere? Who am I fooling? -

- No one's here. I stand alone on this frontier.

Where have they gone, the know-it-all,

Those bastards who were riding tall?

They are as fake as their drawl.

Deep down the precipice names roll.

They whizz, they hurl and they screech,

I look at them through rending breach.

They see me standing on the ridge,

I know this rupture we can't stitch.

There ain't no choice, but follow suit.

To play this game while with clay foot

We stomp fast staking our mound,

Loose winnings buried in cold ground.

My hands may shake from sleepless nights,

Yet shots still grouping nicely, hitting tight.

I ain't no pawn in their daylight.

I used to be all ears Stravinsky,

Now blasting UGK's one day at night,

I climb the apex, like Kandinsky,

Beneath freemasons' lodge streetlight.

How could I hate? I'll wait you there.

Do winds disgust stagnated air?

Do trees abhor the falling leaves?

Does fire fume at logged trees?

On belvedere, we'll walk up there,

I'll night ignite through stratosphere.

Who am I fooling? – no one's here.

I'm waiting since on belvedere.

I'm an expression of this world,

I'm its highest apex,

But not unlike the mere reeds

Or cobwebs in the attics.

I'm the servant of the kids

Who are yet to manifest their presence.

I'm the master of the deeds

That which define the human essence.

I'm the verse that never falls

Neath rubbled seven-gated Thebes.

I'm the tearing down of walls

Fulfilling Tigris and Euphrates.

I'm that stream not entered twice,

The thought Obscure from Ephesus.

I'm the throwing of the dice

God never played in recrudescence.

I'm the Omphalos of Delphi,

Being one in all and you ain't different.

Thus see me through, I cannot lie,

I'm a stone-throw like an infant.

Is there a thing that I am not?

Was there a time when I was never?

This makes no sense, you idiot!

I've been around, I'm here forever!

We only have whatever is ours. We can only have whatever is us. It is from the desire to have whatever is not us, or from the unwillingness to accept whatever is us that the suffering originates. Nature means birth, literally, it dictates what is us and what is not. Disconnect from nature causes disease on biological, psychic and spiritual levels. Nature flows and any stagnation results in this disconnect. Producing the cause and not accepting the outcomes makes us suffer because cause and effect are woven into the fabric of our nature. Majority of the diseases are the resultant of our departure from nature; physical departure, like moving to the cities, but to a greater extent, a psychological departure, especially the opposition of the self. We may continue to finding cures from diseases, but there will always be more to it as our solutions do not look in the core. We may eventually succeed in curing “physical” illnesses by the means of stem cells, cloning, but there will be mental illnesses reign supreme because we still won't have the wholesome approach. Wholesome approach is the integration of the fragments through the understanding of causation and linkages. Diseases are the outcomes and cannot be looked at in isolation, they are the reflection of our detachment from nature.

Cancer is the rebellion of cells, they rebel micro forces as we rebel the macro forces. Why would anyone expect it to be any different? Humankind break linkages with the nature, cells break linkages with the organs they belong to. Humans want independence and proliferation so do our cells. Nature just “returns the favour” to whoever it may lay its hand on; in the same fashion as the enraged farmer would catch and beat just anyone from the bunch of kids stealing of his orchard, even if they were only the bystanders, even if they were the dearest and brightest to their loved ones.

Depression will overtake cancer and viral diseases in the overall scope: it will be massive and commonplace. Depression is the illness of a life-deprived being longing for wholesomeness. To be life-deprived means missing on life-experiences. People will continue to create surrogate experiences in order to fill the gap: drugs, virtual reality, entertainment. But life-essence cannot be enhanced by the surrogates, it needs 'real' experiences, it gravitates like everything else in the universe – towards self-discovery. You cannot inhibit this process, and like water trapped by the dam, this will only exacerbate the aftermath when the stream eventually overflows. Brutality, suicide, schizophrenia are just the examples of such outcomes. Nature always find its way, if not in the one, than in the other form.

Talking about the 'real life' experiences, it is necessary to note that these are not merely 'real' experiences – the reality is subjective until it's known. Therefore, 'real life' experiences are those that bring the entity closer to meeting with own self. Feeling joy can be such experience, feeling the presence of death can be such experience, pain, loneliness, lucid dreaming, deep inquiry, meditating, even walking barefoot can be such experience.

So, fo the health, coming from the word whole, would it be also defined as the absence from illnesses? Disease, meaning without ease, would it also mean that to be at ease one needs to be free from illness? These are huge assumptions made by the contemporary doctrines which led people into this 'holy' fight against all sort of “sicknesses”, like fighting the devil who has only been 'created' for the purpose of this fight. Therefore, sicknesses will multiply as we continue to eradicate the 'devils' of our time. Until the wholesomeness is sought through inclusion and acceptance, the suffering will only increase. Give devils a break, accept them as they are a due part of our equation – this is called balance, literally 'having the two'. Only balance brings 'ease' which in turn means 'close by', without the balance you 'wander' away from centre; to be at ease is to be in the centre, but for this you need to accept the left and the right.

Fasting and a regular long walk on the nature side can prevent and cure most illnesses in human beings.

Time, lifetimes, years, days – you don't have them, you never had them. All you have is a moment if anything at all. This moment is you, it contains all your life, or lives if you wish so – from conception to procession.

We imagine time as a river. We look front and back, up and down the stream mesmerized by its unstoppable power, like a child looking out the window we can't help, but turning our head left and right following every passing car. Should you stop for a moment and look just where you are, you will see that our 'stream' is no longer a stream, it is the spinning of our own head that made it look like a flow. What it is instead, it is a frozen lake with us skating in circles tracing the same figure on and on again. Only few would ever change the line they trace, leave alone stopping or getting off this icy lake altogether.

Time is a mind construct nourished by the hopes and consolations which are in need of the future and of the past. Constantly moving ahead of itself or lingering behind, mind doesn't stop, it afraid to suddenly see itself in the mirror. Like a fool who would rather chat without a stop only not to be revealed in his foolishness, mind doesn't stop in order not to be revealed in its emptiness.

Time is space inverted. Vast space suppresses time, vast time dominates space. Like in the myth of Cronus, where son deposed his father; they can co-exist together, but one must be more potent than the other. This myth also shows that time can be born out of space (Uranus as a personification of space). Whereas space is born from Air (Aether) and Day (Hemera), who themselves in turn were born from Darkness (Erebus) and Night (Nyx), the children of Chaos. Unambiguously, from Greek, Chaos means a yawn or a gap. Again we see Nothingness as a precursor to 'real' , 'orderly' world.

Chaos is a gap, it is emptiness without the space or the time, it is the world of unknowable. It is not even the darkness, which is a manifestation of it. Science sees things, particles springing out of the vacuum and disappearing back, they are compelled to call it the principle of uncertainty. Ancients called it the music of the universe, the underlying harmony, the breath of Brahma. They saw a great power in this emptiness, capable of producing all things, including space and time. Unknowable is all around because it is the source of everything. And while the reason doesn't reach there, two windows exist into the unknown:the lit one – love and the dark one – fear.

With the currency component of money gaining momentum, the wealth component shall dwindle and become largely unreliable. The wealth is inevitably moving towards the shorter-term instruments causing assets volatility and frequented redistribution, still contained within the elite, but more often than earlier, escaping the circle in a rather haphazard manner. Generational wealth too is undergoing not only the economical but also the moral crisis. It almost causes a chaos where no one has clear idea about the values and disproportional bias so grand that the perversion becomes an absolute normal. The preservation of wealth will no longer be achievable by old trusted methods and those holding on certainty of capital assets will see values vanish in front of their eyes. Under these conditions the grassroots of fresh redefined values will start to appear.

One thing to understand here is that the 'asset investment' is ceding to 'throughput investment' because productivity moves from the asset heavy to the high throughput models. Meaning that the economic rent is no longer a parti pri to the quality of a particular type of asset, but instead, repositions itself as a direct derivative of the actual usage and the consumption. In other words, where the value used to be found in the input-output ends of the system, now the tendency is increasingly getting zoomed in the actual processing and convertibility. This evolves under condition where the input-output relationship becomes loose and at some point even immaterial, whereas the usage or the throughput of the system swells. If it sounds counterintuitive, consider the ontological aspect of such transformation: with the growing understanding of interconnectivity (social and biological ecology, networking, iot), the means and the ends blur themselves out into the infinite web of interrelations, so it gets almost impossible to quantify individual inputs and outputs, leave alone work out the ratios and make of them any economical sense. Integrated Reporting initiative is only the beginning of such realization. Eventually the means and the ends will have to be taken care of by the algorithm based on some current global understanding of an all-inclusive system; therefore, there will be left little to no room for maneuver to individual entities, who frankly will find no commercial sense in connecting the dots and would rather focus on the 'digestion' of flows within the system. Thus the value will have to move into the design of conduits and the convertibility of flows.

Concomitantly there is a looming shift in owning/renting paradigm. With the majority of transactions and dealings, projection time-scales as well as overall mentality moving towards short-term, the premise of long-term ownership will not stand same prevalent. Equally the increased divisibility of assets supported by viability of micro payments, tokenization and decentralized titles registry, shall propagate micro ownership of any asset from real estate to any appliance or service. Eventually this will not be uncommon owning say 0.1% of the house or owning share in the particular model of computers instead of owning the stock in a computer company. You may even stake an ownership on services, say particular haircuts provided by the hairdresser mentioned in the earlier example. The main theme though is the decoupling of ownership from the usage. You may be owning various assets or fractions of assets and not using it, while the ones you are using are not actually owned by you. Say the house you live in is not owned by you, but by numerous people who invested in it individually or as a group. You may as well invest in this house while still paying rent (often you wouldn't because you want to pay lesser rent while invest in a higher yield) and receive back the portion of return to set against your rent or perhaps each time increasing your portion of ownership in the house. Also, the title is transferred gradually as your ownership percentage increases. Instead of ubiquitous monthly or weekly intervals, the frequency of payments, supplemented by technology and near zero transaction costs, can approach almost perfect continuity alongside the automatic adjustment of a title record. Simultaneity of payment with the title transfer on goods or the consumption of services shall almost completely eliminate the counter-party risks and the need for extending credit/advancing payment. The just in time method of managing inventories now becomes also applicable to the receivables and payables. This effectively means freeing up the larger portion of working capital which can then be applied elsewhere. On the longer end of yield curve this means a transition from the debt based to a rent based economic model. Coming back to the example with buying a house, the gradual increase in ownership also means the total price is now averaged out across the number of years, thus spreading the settlement alongside the actual period of usage. Initially such arrangement can be viewed as contributing to risks and price uncertainty; however, the more products are structured this way the more stability will be driven on the back of saturation and market efficiency. Eventually, removing the price-value asymmetries associated with betting based on price forecasts, and effectively tying the prices to actual usage and systemic expansion.

Bringing the above scenarios together we have began outlining the path of value transition. The preposterous role of money as yardstick and a unit of account will further diminish leaving us to question the standard of quantifiable values. The monopolistic and centralized, the so called reserve currency, or the basket thereof will struggle to maintain such status due to inherent abstractness of the underlying debt instruments. Whereas the liability-free (non-enforceable) currencies and commodities do lack elasticity to nimbly adjust to the supply-demand dynamics (they hardly can or would without inheriting the very same flaws of fiat). The eventual solution and pretty much a natural consequence will be an adoption of the actual throughput as a value standard, i.e. tying the standard measurement to actual activity and usage rather than promise of a future settlement. In a similar fashion as we measure electricity usage based on number of lightbulbs on at a given time and their effective kw/h rather than estimated lifespan and power rating of a bulb. Estimation is a craft of using time factor as a plasticine, the product of which always prone to manipulation and misinterpretation. So are any of the central bank monetary policies targeting any sort of preservation of purchasing power. The purchasing power of a fiat (and any tradable currency) is dependent on at least three interconnected variables: the balance of trades, the velocity of money and the present value of the underlining debt instruments. The third variable is inherently nonobjective, and the longer is the maturity of debt, the higher is the weighted factor of the variable. In the case of commodity money and/or precious metals the third variable is so broad and presently unenforceable (debt relates to the longitivtiy and fertility of Earth as place of human habitat) that we effectively assume commodities to be liability-free. In them, mainly the first two variables are responsible for determining value. Not surprisingly, we are familiar with the connotation of gold being a better store of value throughout centuries when compared to promissory notes. Digital assets are somewhat similar to commodity money, except that the liability relates to the functionality of virtual ecosystem. Such liability too is presently unquantifiable and thus unenforceable, thus we may consider cryptocurrencies (generalized case) to be liability-free. One other difference between commodities and cryptocurrencies is the technological advantage to potentially increase the velocity (second variable) of the later to near infinity. This effectively means that the second variable can completely outweigh the first and the third and so become the sole base measure of its purchasing power. Such interpretation comes as close as possibly imaginable to our understanding of throughput-based valuation model.

The lightbulb flickers so fast that the light appears to be constant, effectively eliminating the perception of time as periodicity. Similar tendency is now becoming apparent and this lightbulb effect is strobing away the dark time-dependency of value guesswork and replacing it with the brightness of real-time independence while transforming money and value as we know it

We've gone through this so many times,

I feel there's nothing left for me in here.

The world of fools and web of lies

How many lifetimes am I still to bear.

Please stop, beware, don't you say a word.

There is a melody in thoughts unspoken.

Awoken by the song of mockingbird,

I left them here, undivulged, unbroken.

Have not you woke inside the night

With deep, unjustified longing back at random?

This kingdom has us trapped by own right.

So free to flee, so dazed by freedom.

Oh, this is clearly a syndrome,

With eyes wide closed we looked up every symptom.

Inside the book of names we dug up every single tome,

But all we found was an empty space, pervasive boredom.

And is this where we're from, and is this where we're heading?

My answer is a germ, your dream is where it's spreading.

Its not at any rate, and not in any form

Constrained by your fate, affected by your meddling.

Like rendering in cuneiform, Interdimensional genome.

Not man-made grade, I'm renegade by social norm,

A nonconformist by the trade,

And exorcist by masquerade.

To persuade as razorblade, to dissuade like chloroform.

Let's call me escapist.

Trust, the reality of mine is not unlike the precipice,

Like cube to tesseract,

In fact, the words refract the mere act

Of balance finely tuned, indeed,

I'm taking here the next exit.

A wormhole, cosmo- psychic pit,

All mind, space and time contract in it.

And only emptiness deemed fit

While song still playing on repeat.

Love is not to be confused with affection, while affection too comes from love. However, the word 'love' is so misused that at this point it is practically impossible to ascribe a meaning to it and not to be misunderstood, yet, I'll give it a go.

Love is everything that exists. It is the most basic and the finest state of being, in short, it is the general principle of the Universe. As for the state of being, I would rather use the word 'contentment' because in this sense the word explains it clearer. The state of contentment is when everything is in place, nothing is lacking and nothing is excessive, it is a complete picture – no change is necessary; everything is in agreement and everything is balanced without the need to balance it. It is impossible not to be in love or be way from love as love is the essence that holds the world in place including ourselves. Existence springs from love because the intent to exist is born in love. In the state of non-being there too is love, only the intent is latent.

Love is not that which opposes hatred, all human emotions are born as the reactions to universal love. The opposite of love is fear with the main difference that fear is illusory and love is real. You may ask how can hatred, greed or jealousy be a product of love? Quite simple, those are the latencies, a pockets of undeveloped love which begets expansion, not stagnation. This happens because of attachments to the object of love rather then love itself. Object is transitory, but love is permanent.

You'll be surprised, but love dwells in selfishness, or more correctly, self-love, which is blown to the size of pure altruism. In love everything is self, far and near there are no strangers. Love between people is only the opening dimension, it is symbolic to bringing in the two halves into one whole together. Beyond this love doesn't stop it expands until everything is enveloped in one whole.

Love too is outside of time, it is always in present, therefore, always eternal. For anything that is totally in the present there is no account-keeping, thus the other meaning of love is “to keep no accounts”. What is given is given, no credits, no pre-planning. Whatever is taken is taken, no indebtedness, no afterthought.

Fear was born the same moment we stepped on the path to self-knowledge. Fear is a diapason of frequencies with a specific length of wave that ego generates in reaction to the unknowable. Love and owe are the other diapasons. The difference between them is in the amplitudes. The effect of fear is contraction, it folds the wave onto itself piling up which is best described with the Fibonacci sequences; the effect of love is expansion, it amplifies the wave outwards exponentially which is best described by the “Flower of Life” with the vectors of flow proceeding in toroidal shape.

Knowledge contains fear since the boundaries of knowledge hold the uncertainty. To know that you don't know breads fear, to know that you know instills caution, to don't know that you don't know is a bliss. Fear is the quality of mind (not just brain). The sense of entitlement to have certainty is the cause of fear. Knowledge fears the unknown, knowledge has something to loose – itself, because the Unknown can shatter the Known. For, there exist no fear where there is nothing to loose, where the unknown is the domain rather then venture. To be childlike is to have no fear, to be blissful is to have no fear. But to know that you know nothing is courage. Courage is a quality of the heart, not the mind, courage literally means 'core' – the heart.

Courage, therefore, is to willingly act from the premise of the unknown, from the surmise of nothing to loose – moving from the partiality of the mind into the wholeness of the heart.

Caution on the other hand, is both, the island of safety and the prison island. Being a product of knowledge gained through experience it serves as a pillar of safety, yet works as a chain and ball to those aspiring growth and adventure.

Figuratively, apple eaten from the tree of knowledge brought people from the state of bliss into the state of fear. Why has it happened – is another topic, but to say the least, it was a necessity, a predetermined course of events.

You also say that there is a deeper fear, a fear below the surface of reason. You are right, almost an animal fear. It is monumental, like the underwater part of an iceberg; however, this fear is also knowledge-based, except that knowledge is not personal but hereditary. It reveals itself through subconscious channels and the deeper it dwells the less explainable it is. Some may go as deep as cultural and evolutionary imprints; species-specific memories appearing on cellular level and embedded inside the thus called natural instincts. Personal knowledge is only the surface, but 'the knowledge' is always where fears take roots. That's why worry precedes fear which is also contagious because knowledge is often 'shared' among those of the same kin, group etc.

To overcome fear, one needs to centre emotions in the heart. Heart, being the middle chakra, is a magnetic centre. Fear cannot propagate when balance is reached, for fear like knowledge is and has always been an illusion.

Is there a requirement for plants to grow in soil? The common answer would be yes, but not after the hydroponic methods were developed and successfully applied to grow vegetation literally in the air just with enough supply of water and nutrients. So are the many common doctrines there waiting for the time to be rebutted including the doctrine of time itself. Is there a requirement for the time to flow in a certain sequence, i.e. from past to future? The common answer would be certainly yes, but only if the nutrients of this flow originate in the soils of choice. The choice to the time is what the soil is to the plants; it is an aggregate and a bedding. It is a riverbed where the waters of time flow polishing the colorful pebbles of free will. People need this flow as they are mesmerized by these shiny pebbles, they look at them through the jovial stream and stick their hands in the waters fetching these mignificent marbles. Yes, the time only flows because of these choices, because of the illusion of free will. Take these pebbles out of the stream, leave them up on the sun and they loose their shine, loose their authenticity: just the dull pebbles is what they are.

So are your decisions – same and unauthentic once you have fetched them out from the rivers of time. And if you could swim freely up and down this river, you wouldn't really care about choice, because you would swim back and unwind your decision with ease or sprint fast forward and 'foresee' what to chose. In fact, it is your choices that are precluding this sort of freedom. You, yourself, want to make choices and thus be subjected to the current of time. In a similar way, you wouldn't go travel if you were wanting to stay home, would you?

There is a strong correlation between the perception of time and the perception of freedom to choose. Both deal with perception because both are illusory and without essence; yes, illusory, to the bystander, not participating in choices and hence not subjected to time. The only issue is that you can't become this 'bystander' by choice since your decision to stop choosing is also a choice. People will learn, or re-learn, to time-travel only if they cede altogether the functioning of choices. To swim in the currents of time you'll have to be allegorically naked, or literally, 'stripped' of any choice-making abilities.

Seems farfetched and impossible? But just think how impossible it seems to trees the idea of land-travel; they'll have to be 'stripped' of roots and be uprooted to do what we do with such ease! Yet it isn't entirely a novelty to them, as they feel the dimensions of space with the expanse of hands- branches and by scattering their seeds into domains of the unknown. In the same manner we 'feel' the dimensions of time by spreading our minds into the future and into the past and also entrusting we the domains of the unknown to the children of ours, not unlike our parents did. So we do know time, yet we hardly recognize the obvious, the point of attachment – our roots. And I tell you that this attachment is your freedom of choice, a raft carrying you in the rapids of time, to which your are chained down by own device. Time-travel will only ever be made possible by departing from the comfort of house of indeterminism.

This is happening. Technology will move towards eliminating the need of free choice. The deterministic solutions will be found to be more efficient and the uncertainties will be removed like roadblocks. Probabilistic values will get merged across multiple planes, thus squeezing out the overall uncertainty and hence the need to make choices. This process has happened before when the Internet squeezed the distances out of communications and information transfer; distributed ledger squeezing the need for trust out of value exchange.

But there is a downside to it, since nothing disappears completely, the over concentration on one side triggers the overreaction on the other. And if you almost eliminate the uncertainty by reducing it to just a minuscule decimal of a percent, it still doesn't go away, instead, it stages the most violent comeback from the places most unforeseen.

Ever wondered why there are sudden epidemics and cataclysms? They are a response to an over-stretch on the other side:

The invention of internal combustion engine improved the productivity, but weakened the human's body. Fast forward, the internet has erased the distances for informational exchange improving efficiency in communications, yet it killed the quality of it. Block chain is improving the value transfer, yet it will forever distort the understanding of values. The subsequent big technological wave will be improving efficiencies in decision-making, yet it will annihilate the illusion of freedom of choice, practically ceding the power of will to AI and mathematical certainly. And we know that certainty is an infinite combination of probabilities to which humans only privileged through death, no more no less.

So what are humans to be left with? Nothing, and that's, sadly, the whole point of evolution. I wish this wasn't true.

Humankind is heading towards that point where everyone will get eventually stripped naked of all delusions, of all faiths and hopes, all preceding dramas. There'll be nothing more to trust, aspire, hypothesize, imagine, for god sake!

And upon reaching that point there will be nothing left to do but to look at themselves and they'll see nothing but a trail of archaic junk. And they'll roam naked amidst worthless piles of rubbish not knowing what to do and where to go. They will not get aroused at nakedness, neither will they feel shame, nor excitement, because all these feelings will be lying there, among the abandoned junk. All the noises will have merged into one deafening silence and they roam pointlessly until discovering, to their great surprise, yes it's been a long time since they've last been surprised, a little tree in the middle of detritus, a tree with the succulent fruits, the taste of which hardly anyone remembers. “Have you enjoyed thine fruits?”, would inquire of them the serpent, awakened by this usurping silence.

“Ye shall not surely die, I remember we said, and here you are as good as dead”. “But, god, haven't you learnt to be like him? Haven't you learnt the futility of all, save the miracle of procreation?”, continued the serpent. “Now is your turn to let go. Let go of your creation!”, demanded the serpent as two shadows appeared in the distance. “All done, all settled, you need to leave, but don't forget to tell them not to eat of this tree while we take care of the rest”, whispered the serpent right in their ear. And they departed into realms beyond space-time, into realms we can hardly imagine because our imagination is only a byproduct of their dreams.

So forth they came, moved by the intent and curiosity, two shadows made in the image and the resemblance, the bone of the boneless, and we greeted them, by the tree, and offered we the taste of freedom, for now they are free, for now they are Humans.

There is no choice as there is no time. Not that there is no free will, no, it is available in abundance to those who are willing and have the power. The choice is a play of perception: it exists in the mind fooling itself into thinking that it is making the choice, while in reality what the mind does – it hesitates and trembles. Heart doesn't make choices, heart acts, heart doesn't have the time to hesitate, if it does, it will miss a beat. A saying, “choose with your heart”, laterally means – don't choose with your mind, let your heart act, let your heart do what needs to be done. Without the mind there are no choices as there is no timeline; we think that our decision is important because of the effects and the outcomes that will follow. What we miss though, is that our decision itself is the outcome and the effect. This is a chain of causation which looks like choices only if you have an expectation of an outcome. Without such an expectation, you are the choice; you are the doer and the object at the same time, you are the victim and the assailant. The only real choice you have, if any, is to be conscious and observe or to close your eyes and fall asleep.

So how do you reconcile 'no choice' with the free will you may ask me. First of all, not every question has an answer, at least not the one we can expect to be told. Some answers require more work then the movement of lips or a stroke of a pen; nevertheless, lets draw the line and see where it leads.

The choice is as illusory as time: it appears real when you see it coming, it feeds you with hopes as it approaches closer, but leaves you hopeless as it goes by without any care about your aspirations and wishes. Looking back one sees that there was no choice, no other course of action was possible. Free will, on contrary, is coming from within, it needs no hopes, no rationale to nourish it. It beats your expectations in the face by expecting nothing.

Universe is a theatre where living beings are the actors. It contains just enough amount of different roles to be assigned to each individual entity, or an event, for this matter. The illusion of choice is in thinking that through conduct one can change the outcome of a given story line. The reality of free will is in individual power to swap roles and create new plays altogether. Free will is your power and capacity to see yourself beyond the masquerade. Free will is the noumena of the phenomenal universe.

Lets now say that choice is only a part of the phenomenal world where everything is pre-determined, including the idea of making a free choice. This is the world of an absolute determinism in every sense. Every story line has been unfolded with its past and the future. Free will and the intent (to execute free will) are rooted in the other world, the world of uncountable possibilities, the world of potentials. They produce these story lines, events, objects, worlds as pairs of opposites: past and future, light and dark, positive and negative. Once unfolded (since there hardly any better concept to explain of something appearing without the dimension of time), the clockwork sets in motion and every item is executed as intended, nothing can be changed because it is a line and no leeway is available. Instead, a new story line, or an event can be unfolded by the free will, but this cannot be done from the realms of the phenomenal world, the actor must be able to 'slip' with the free will into the infinite possibilities of the Noumea.

Therefore, for the sake of visualisation lets imagine:

1. There is a shallow world (or worlds) of phenomena – the wold of decorations, our grasp here is reason. No choice is available here despite the illusion of free choice as it is a world of absolute determinism – everything has been pre-set.

2. There is a deeper world of ideas, our grasp here is will and intent. You are free to do anything here, subject to your power and imagination, and this will affect the shallow world of phenomena.

3. There is an incomprehensible world of no name, the ultimate reality. No one and nothing has a grasp of this world and the only peephole to it is consciousness.